Discouragement

Every morning I wake up telling myself that it will be a good day, that I will have control over my food choices and my cravings and urges to eat. I have failed, or at least it feels that way. Every morning I step on the scale and my weight slowly creeps up. I feel like I am doing everything a normal, healthy person should be doing. I run, I count calories, I try to keep indulgences to a minimum (how harmful can a couple marshmallows be?). Clearly something isn't right. I am being very good about logging everything that goes in my mouth and hopefully next week I can get some answers from my doctors. I just feel so unhealthy and sloth-like. AHHHHHHH!

Beauty of the Lord

Wow, it's been a long time since I posted anything. Things have been busy around our house and mostly good.

I decided to get back on here and post again because my weight struggles have reared their ugly heads. I know that weight will never not be a struggle (did that make sense), but they were pretty well under control.
My thyroid levels have been off the last 2-3 months and I knew it right away when I was having a hard time maintaining my weight and I was EXHAUSTED! For a while I was extremely paranoid that I was pregnant. So, what I'm finding is that one weekend of endulgance means several weeks of strict dieting and extreme work outs. Its frustrating and exhausting, why can't I just eat like a normal person?
So, I'm hoping to get back on track with a more healthy lifestyle. Better eating habits and more regular work outs. In the meantime, I think that God is teaching me a lesson on thanksgiving (how fitting that Thanksgiving is just around the corner). I'm practicing having an attitude of praise and thanksgiving.
What are you thankful for this week? Today I'm thankful for my high school girl's small group. There's never a dull moment and they are full of joy and laughter.

Starting Over

Well, it's been a while. Life is busy and crazy and I'm finally at a "normal" weight. I've spent the last few months eating as a please and working out like normal. My doctor has my medicine at the right dose and is happy with my progress.
With winter fast approaching and Kenny and I living on a tight budget I'm starting the diet over. I just don't have it in me to buy bigger dress pants to get me through the winter. Everything fits me, but differently because nothing is ever "normal" again after having a baby. Everything goes back in different place and you retain and gain weight in different places also. Things are lumpy, loose and saggy so...it is time to firm up!
Day 1 stats
weight 164.0 (I know, I never reached my first goal)
goal: 155.0

Home Stretch

Well...now that all of my "vacations" are over, I can get back to business. My goal is just 13 days away, with 10 pounds to lose. Not so hard!

Now that I'm working, and I've added a couple of girls to me lesson schedule I will be busy enough to keep myself out of the kitchen!

I'm so excited for the next 13 days. Gotta make sure I fit in my bridesmaid dress :)

Start Weight: 240 (OMGosh!)
Current Weight: 165
Goal Weight: 155
Deadline: September 27

Epic Fail!

I gave myself the deadline Sept. 5 to be at my goal weight. I failed miserably. I still have 10 pounds to lose. I thought that maybe while I was in Houston I would get those last 10 pounds off. What was I thinking!?! My parents don't eat anything but sandwiches or they go out to eat. Of course my mom is making my favorite home cooked meals, they're taking me to my favorite restaraunts and getting lots of my favorite ice cream (Blue Bell). There's no way I'm going to make either of those goals. September 5th has come and gone and my Houston trip will be over 1 week from today. I KNOW I can't lose 10 pounds in 1 week while I'm here.

Since coming to Houston at the beginning of August we have had one family visit or party after another. I've almost given up on the last 10 pounds...at least for the time being. My ABSOLUTE deadline for myself is September 27. That gives me 2 weeks from the time I get back home to lose 10 pounds. I will have to be super strict and not have any cheat days. 2 weeks is nothing, I've done it for longer. I know I can do it. I will be determined to do it.

Even though I'm eating what I want to while I'm on "vacation" I have not gone crazy. I'm still being able to maintain my current weight. I'm running like a maniac and thankfully its still hot in Texas!

Back On Track

I've taken the last 3 weeks off of my diet. I lost 8 pounds while I was in Houston and gained 3 back this past week. I have 14 pounds to go and am kickin' it in high gear. I ran a 5K this morning and I'm getting myself back on this diet wagon. I'm going to be really strict on myself so that I can get these 14 pounds off and move on from all of this weight loss stress!

It's Crunch Time!

So...my goal weight is 155 lbs. I want to be there by September 5. That gives me just 20 days to lose 12 lbs. I did really good while I was in Houston, considering I ate everything I wanted. Its so hard to stay on a diet when you go home to Mama's cookin' and all of your favorite restaurants. The combination of decision making and running after my speed racer kept me out of the kitchen. My last weekend was full of getting in all of my favorite foods before heading back to Maryland. I ate at my favorite Mexican restaurant, and ate LOTS of green sauce (yum, yum), we had burgers, meatloaf and mashed potatoes (my favorite homecooked meal) and I had to squeeze in enough Blue Bell ice cream to last me a while. I gained 4 pounds back in just 3 days. YIKES! Luckily, its not hard to get back on track.
I have 20 more days of hard work. 20 more days of watching what I eat and running hard. 20 more days till my pre-pregnancy clothes fit better than before. 20 more days till I can update my wardrobe!
I'm so glad God made me a determined person!